i'm gonna be alone for new years...how encouraging :-(

posted by: Not_Douche at 17:57 | link | comments |

Your mood pic looks like you got punched in the face. Hahahahaha!!!

posted by: jayts at 01:06 | link | comments |

so, today i was lazy! brooks said they r already too overstaffed as it is to hire me. instead of looking for another chance of a job on main street or doing anything productive like i'd wanted to, i just spent most of my day reading: the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy. i'd heard it was funny years ago and when i saw a movie a while back with my mother and brother in the theater i saw a preview for it. so, i wanted to see what it was all about before it becomes a movie to decide if i'll want to see it or not. i finished it today and am still not sure if i want to see it or not. plus, i don't think i liked the ending. it was like it left me hanging-i hate when books do that! it's interesting, though. very weird and crazy...just intersting. i'd see it just to see how they end up pulling it off.
anyway, so, i'm off to clean my apt. or something so i feel like i at least accomplished something sort of important today!
goodnight everyone! :-)

posted by: Not_Douche at 22:07 | link | comments |

yes, i'm posting yet again today! :-)
well, sense my last update i have walked all the way to brooks, gotten an application, walked home, filled out the 4 page application, walked all the way back to brooks, handed in the application, got the # for brooks to call tomorrow and see if i have a chance, gotten my christmas presents in the mail from ashley, and emailed a "thanks for the gift" online card to my cousin megan, aunt crystal, and aunt sue and uncle mike! damn, finally, not a wasted day! yeahness! :-)
it may be just cause i have been out in the cold, but my apt. feel soooooo very warm right now! i'm proud of myself! i showed those windows! :-)
i want the brooks job out of anything i could get a job from on this street. it would be a good walk to and from it that would make me feel energized, and i have done cashier work before anyway, so why not?!? i hope when i call tomorrow they have nothing but good things to say about my chances of getting in. but, if not, it gives me another reason to get out the apt. tomorrow and try another place on the street!
for christmas, ashley sent me: a card with her pic in it, the same pic of her enlarged and in a frame, nightmare before christmas pens (with lock, shock, and barrel on them), and nightmare before christmas paper (with jack on them). fun! :-)
i guess i really do need to call her sometime today then! i also promised naomi i'd call her and i should call my aunt susan back. i'll probably do that later, but for now, i'm gonna relax and watch a movie or something to reward myself for the few things i accomplished today that make me feel like i did a lot more than i guess i really did! but, it really is more than i have done in a while. :-) so, i'm gonna do that and i'll be back on this again tonight, i'm sure. later! :-)

posted by: Not_Douche at 18:48 | link | comments |

update: so it's been way more than a half hour and no corey. so, i got pissed and did it myself! hope it actually helps! i got the tops to shut, but from what corey said, it sound like they fall at the tops often in this apt. don't want to keep up with that shit! took way too much energy to put all those up myself-lots of pain and cracking went on. hope it helped. i'll see tonight! i'll be back on later tonight to tell u if it's warm in here or not finally!
well, i'm off to go job searching on main street, if i can muster up the courage to do it still.

posted by: Not_Douche at 16:15 | link | comments |

maybe today will be the day i have luck again!!!! yeahness! my apt. isn't too cold today cause there isn't any wind out there coming through my windows, but i decided today is the day to get stuff done that i need to-cause i've been procrastinating and complaining and that got me nowhere! plus, my horoscope told me to as well! ;-)
so, i went downstaris to talk with the landlady, who isn't in yet, of course! but, my 3rd floor roommate corey was there and offered to come up here in about a half hour to help me after she's done tanning! :-) apparently the landlady called her and asked if she was as cold up there as i've been complaining i am and never contacted me once corey said she was sweating it out up there! what a bitch of a landlady!!!! arg!
but, anyway, perfect timing for me to go there when corey was there! hope she can help me with the windows when she comes up and then i'm going to go out and hope there's some place along main street hiring where i can work!
wish me luck and i'll check back in here later in the day to let everyone know how everything worked out! :-)

posted by: Not_Douche at 14:47 | link | comments |

i'm going to bed early with a headache. arg! that's all i can say! arg!

goodnight.

posted by: Not_Douche at 22:53 | link | comments |

i just had lunch. oh boy, another exciting day (place sarcasm here). i'll probably go do my dishes after this and then try to be little miss fix-it and figure out my damn windows and how to turn on the heat. it's freezing in here!!!!! i can't feel my hands and i'm surprised i can't see my breath!
so, i'm off to do that. i'll be back on later to see what everyone else is up to! i'll say happy 20th birthday to corey on here too (even though i don't think he looks at our individual blogs)!
later! :-)

posted by: Not_Douche at 17:23 | link | comments (1) |

today was a long, cold, boring, frustrating day!
my apt. is freezing cause the landlady won't listen to my pleas for getting my windows fixed and even with the heat on it's so cold in here i can't feel my hands!
the insurance co. called me a few times again today out of the blue to bitch me out cause they still can't get a hold of the towing co. in ohio that has my car.
other than that, today i cleaned my apt. after an ok, but an apparently messy, christmas. i also read a lot more in the book unlubricated-which is getting good! i'm liking arthur nersesian's writing a lot! i think corey would like this book too cause they refer to 9/11 stuff through-out it and he seems to be obsessed with that kind of stuff! anyway, david has been calling me and chatting with me through-out the day too.
i'm in such a pissy mood, though. it sucks.
well, i'm gonna read some more and then watch the lord of the rings the 2 towers and see if that puts me in a better mood for at least a little while before i go to sleep.
hope everyone's doing well! goodnight!

posted by: Not_Douche at 22:40 | link | comments |

so, my mother and brother left a little while ago to go back to ny. i'm all alone again. who knows for how long this time, though! who knows when i'll get another car, when i'll get to go to the laundry mat, when i'll get to go shopping. no way around sucks.
so many things went wrong these last couple of days. ian didn't come on christmas like he was going to cause "he and carrie got crunched for time" that day. then, my grandmother decided to double team with my mother and take it to the next level-she wrote a note in my christmas card basically saying my family has dubbed me incapable and unable to live away from home after my car accident and everyone wants to get me back to ny. that's just beautiful. makes me feel really good...not! also, i got a call from david's bro saying that his mother won't give or even show him his wedding pics i took for him because she thinks she looks fat in a few of the pics! how insane is that!?!?! so, i have to find a way to get to hallmark imaging again and have them reprint that same proof order for the bride and groom! i can't get over how stupid that is!!!! arg!!!! plus, everytime i move lately, i crack somewhere-mostly in my shoulders. weird. i wonder if it's from my accident or if not drinking enough milk in my life has already caught up with me? it sucks either way. my mother was going to take me to the hospital today for it and my still hurting neck, but i chickened out and told her i was better now. i hate hospitals. hate them so much!
sorry to complain so much! guess i just needed to get it out and this is where i finally decided to do it.
despite how this sounds, i did have an ok christmas (aside from all those complaints i have from the day). my mother and brother and i stayed in our pj's all day (i was in my new cute victoria secret pj's from heather-thanks again-they r so comfy!) and watched movies all day after eating and exchanging gifts. we watched the nightmare before christmas and the lord of the rings and the pirates of the carribean, etc. not necessarily all christmas movies, but fun ones none-the-less! :-) i got some fun stuff too. my brother bought me lots of nightmare before christmas stuff and my mother bought me some fun stuff-including an 18 inch brandon lee doll from the movie the crow that talks and is motion activated. i like it! i just wait for the night when it turns on itself during the night and he does the evil laugh one of his many sayings and scares the shit out of me! :-)
ok, well, this has become quite a long entry! i'm gonna stop now and eat away my troubles with some ice cream-yeah for ben and jerry's!

posted by: Not_Douche at 00:31 | link | comments (1) |

going to bed and waking up to christmas-everyone have a great one!!!!!!! :-)

posted by: Not_Douche at 00:36 | link | comments |

so, tomorrow's friday, right? that means my mother and brother r coming here so they will be here for christmas.
not too much going on with me here. i guess it'll be good to have other people here for a few days. i guess i'm going to go to the emergency room on sunday after christmas cause everyime i move i crack somewhere (my shoulders or my neck or my back-mostly at my shoulders, tho). oh boy.
i'm excited to get to see ian on christmas! he started text messaging me out of the blue yesterday and confirmed he will be here that day for a little while. yeahness!!!!
not much else to write about. i've been lazy all day. just watched the movie the boundock saints. luv that movie so much!
i wish i could see everyone! can't wait to get to see corey and jay eventually. who knows when they'll get to come here like they want to though. i really want to get to see them so badly!
i was talking with david today and he said that he probably won't get to come here to see me until feb. sometime! ah! i miss him!!! was supposed to spend new years with him, but the lack of a car put a stop to those plans. that sucks!
well, i'm already going to go get ready for bed now. 6:30pm isn't too early to go to bed, is it?
well, hope everyone's doing well and has a great christmas!!!!
goodnight! :-)

posted by: Not_Douche at 22:35 | link | comments (1) |

i'm up and being lazy!
guess there isn't anything else for me to do, so the laziness is justified.
i'm going to have to go back to the post office today to send out presents for my friends ashley and naomi in ny. that's it, though. that's all i have to accomplish today.
so, once i get ready and go to the post office, i'll probably be on the computer all afternoon! crazyness!

posted by: Not_Douche at 14:14 | link | comments |

so, how does the new blog style look? hope everyone likes it cause i was just looking how a new template would look and looking at this one fucked up my last template! so, i had to change it to get most of my info back! i've been trying to figure out how to put my horoscope on here like i had everyday on my other one, but it keeps messing up the rest of the page! i guess i like this new look, but arg!

posted by: Not_Douche at 20:38 | link | comments (2) |

today has been so boring! plus, i've had a horrible headache the last couple of days! it must be because i haven't had coffee these last 2 days cause i have been too lazy to do the dishes for the coffee maker! so pathetic!
i at least accomplished sending out some bills and my ticket from my accident and a few christmas presents today. plus, i finally took out the trash.
wow, this has been a boring day.
well, i think i'm gonna get into my pj's already and take a nap or just keep being lazy or something.

posted by: Not_Douche at 19:45 | link | comments |

just as a p.s. to the complaining of the day-i totally had a really good hair day today and no one saw it! arg! hate that shit!
oh well, goodnight again.

posted by: Not_Douche at 01:50 | link | comments |

ok, so lots of time to complain and explain. fun fun. brace yourselves!
so, i get in an accident last week tuesday on my way to visit shenna in indiana. that sucked in so many ways i don't even want to go there! once heather called me and i was relieved to find out i wasn't stranded in ohio, i had a good 4 hours to wait for heather to get there. so, the 1st thing i did with that time was walk to a gas station nearby and buy cigarrettes for the first time in quite a while. ooppsi-oh well-screw it! wish it wasn't so cold out, though! makes it a really bad time to start something like that up again!
heather helped me out soooo much and i had a lot of fun, so the rest of that week went by really quickly.
then, my mother comes to pick me up to bring me back to my apartment in greenfield. first, she takes me back to my totalled car in ohio to get the license plates off it for the damn bitchy insurance company! it was about midnight when we finally got back to greenfield, but it felt like it was so much later due to all the bickering we did about her trying to make me move back to my hometown (the worst place in the world-trust me) and from just plain out being so tired from being on the road so long.
she went back to my hometown today after carting me around all morning so i could get a few errands done that i needed a car to do.
now, all i have to do is sit and think about how my neck seems to be getting more and more sore as the days go on! plus, now my back and arms are always sore as well! and, everytime i move really, something cracks. i don't always feel it, but i definitely hear it! can't be good!
ok, gonna stop complaining for now and do other things on my computer. but, i'll probably be on to do some more complaining tomorrow too. goodnight all. hope everyone's week goes better than mine is looking like it's gonna be.

posted by: Not_Douche at 23:35 | link | comments |

got home to greenfield around midnight. will write all about everything tomorrow or sometime when i'm not so tired! goodnight everyone!

posted by: Not_Douche at 05:47 | link | comments |

wow, they upgraded motime and the top part looks so different! very spiffy! :-)
too bad i still don't have a bar for fonts and faces, though! i was hoping one would magically appear for me when i read they were upgrading the site this morning. oh well!
well, my visiting plan is posted on the main hallmark site. sooooooo excited! a little nervous about all the driving, but it's worth it! also nervous it'll be hard to find shenna when i get to indiana, but i'm going for it either way! hope she calls me today.
wow, it's already 12:37ish! gotta finish my coffee and get off my lazy butt and finish everything i have to do today to be totally ready for tomorrow!!! not moving too fast right now though cause i have a bit of a nasty hangover. at the last greniers get-together i went to yesterday night (it was held at a bar cause it was the cheepest place they could find) the woman there didn't card anyone! so, someone started me off with some shots and it went downhill from there! :-) it was fun, though!
ian gave me my christmas present from him yesterday. he got creative with a pretty cool pic he took of me a while back and put it on an old bike part he had and made it look like a christmas tree ornament. it's awesome! he's awesome! he called me a little while ago (cause i'd told him how i was origionally going to drive to shenna's today) to see how my ride was going. that was a nice surprise! he's too sweet! he's going to call me again tomorrow when i really end up heading out again. oh, and he's coming to my place for christmas too! i like him so much! arg! how can he be like this with me and still like that keri girl? arg! oh well.
his ex, michelle, and i have totally become friends! she's too fun! she's heading out for the army in mid jan. and she's going to write to me from there as often as she can. she won't be back till may once she heads out. i'm so saddened about that! i'll miss her!
ok, well, off to finish my coffee and get ready and stuff! :-)

posted by: Not_Douche at 16:46 | link | comments |

i'm just chillin' and having some coffee before i have to get my butt into gear and do the thousand things i have to today! it feels like so much, but probably isn't really cause i'm just so lazy! :-D
so, just wanted to say good morning to everyone while i'm up!
i'll post more again later! :-)

posted by: Not_Douche at 14:22 | link | comments |

ok, all my christmas shopping and wrapping is done! yeahness! now i just have to fill out everyone's cards and stuff. fun!!! getting so excited for the holiday! i bought a christmas tree scented candle today and put it next to my nightmare before christmas tree and that smell really makes it feel like christmas now!
not too much else to write about right now. my last day of work is tomorrow. i feel like i have so much to do tomorrow and in general. crazyness!
i have to call shenna tomorrow too so i can finalize plans with her. then, heather, i'll let u know what day i'll be heading to see u. i'm so excited to get to visit everyone!!! the only thing is that i'll probably have to visit amy, corey, and justin in early jan.
well, g2g to bed now. i get to be at work for 4:45am again tomorrow morning! goodnight everyone! :-)

posted by: Not_Douche at 00:06 | link | comments |

ok, so, i did most of my christmas shopping today. fun!!!! i'd forgotten how fun christmas is to shop for! i not only had to get gifts, but decorations too cause my mother wants to come to my apt. for christmas! that'll rock! i got the little nightmare before christmas tree in hot topic and stockings and the whole works! i'm excited about it!!!
i'm excited this is my last week at the greniers and i'm excited that i'll get to visit shenna and heather and everyone soon!!!!! p.s. heather-just wanted to say it again-your new hair cut looks sooooooooo cute from the pic u put on your blog!

posted by: Not_Douche at 00:40 | link | comments (1) |

i've been staring at my computer editing and retouching my wedding portraits all day and still have waaaaaaaay too many left to do!!!! arg!
i'm taking a break while i'm burning some onto a cd so i can give my poor eyes and neck a little rest!
omg! there's snow outside on the ground and there's a lot more still coming! yuckiness! i hate winter!
oh well, i'm going to go make some hot chocolate or something.

posted by: Not_Douche at 21:05 | link | comments |

took the quiz heather n took and this is what i got:

You Are Ariel!

Headstrong and fiesty. You have a mind of your own that's full of romantic dreams about the world around you. Exploring exotic places is your ultimate dream, and although you can be a little naive you'll realize that there is something to be gained from your family's wisdom.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

posted by: Not_Douche at 14:26 | link | comments (1) |

so, today i'm going to try to get lots of stuff done that i need to...hope it works out! :-) the thing that will really take a lot of time will be editing all the wedding pics and then sending them to the lab. i'm going to try lustre color online today, as corey suggested to me last time we spoke.
the weekend was ok. photographing the wedding was a terrible experience, as i had expected, but i got through it and got to hang with david a lot after i stopped taking pics for it! we danced and had a good time and hung out at the mall and stuff.
the cher concert in montreal was cancelled. my mom was sooooooo dissapointed! i felt so bad cause i knew she was looking forward to it so much. i can't find that it's cancelled online anywhere, but they told us at the border and at the bell centre parking lot enterence. so, i have to figure out who to call to see if the very expensive tickets will be honored at another concert or, at the very least, refunded. arg!
i got home late last night and got my work schedule from the greniers. apparently, this is the last week of working there. i work tuesday, wednesday, and thursaday as of right now. i am supposed to be an assistant all 3 days, but it always seems to work out that something happens to make me have to be the photographer anyway when i'm scheduled to be an assistant! will have to see how this turns out.also, heather n-we have to figure out how u want to do the shenna visiting thing. i'm figuring i'll leave on the 12th and stay with her till the 18th? i'll have to see if u can do that and then give shenna a call to see how that works for her! let me know! :-)
well, i'm off to finish my coffee and try to get everything done that i want to today! ;-)

posted by: Not_Douche at 14:01 | link | comments (2) |

so, ian wanted to assist me at the wedding i'm photographing on friday, but he has to work saturday morning and we wouldn't be back in time for him to make it. that sucks!!! looks like i'm on my own with it. the mother drives me insane, hope i don't loose it there! it'll be so nerve racking not having an assistant there with me. every wedding i've done so far, corey was there with me. this is gonna be interesting.
i'm have to work at the greniers tomorrow morning, then i'm gonna head to ny after. the wedding is on friday. saturday is that cher concert i'm taking my mother and bro to in montreal. then, probably sunday morn. i'll head home and get my work schedule.
busy busy!!
well, i'm off to bed soon. goodnight everyone! :-)

posted by: Not_Douche at 22:05 | link | comments (3) |

so, not much to write about right now, but felt like doing it anyway! :-)
i just woke up and i'm having some coffee. i now believe that maybe i didn't make the coffee wrong, but maybe i was just buying brands i didn't like! my brother gave me free dunkin donuts coffee (cause he now works at one in ny) and i've been using that and it actually tastes good!!! yeahness! not doomed to drink yucky coffee i make all my life! i'm very excited! :-)
well, that's my excitement so far. :-) i'll write more again later. everyone have a great day!!!!

posted by: Not_Douche at 13:40 | link | comments (1) |

feels like it has been forever since i've gotten to write on this thing! sorry all.
i had a great time getting to go to that shadows fall concert with jay and ian and getting to see amy and heather in boston! plus, meeting jair and jason was fun too-u both r cute couples! good to see u both so happy with your guys around!!!! happy for u two! i had the best thanksgiving vacation time!
once i got home, though, i've been in a weird mood. maybe it's this apt. or just living alone. who knows. whatever it is, it sucks. the second i walk into this place i loose all ambition to do anything and sometimes it gets so bad, i don't even answer my phone. even if i know who's calling and they r great friends i luv and luv to talk to. i just feel so, i don't know, i feel like staying locked away in here forever. i stayed in my pj's all day today and watched dvds. it's weird, i know. sorry. whatever.
sherry was supposed to visit me this week when i got back from boston, but she didn't get some money she was waiting for in the mail for gas money and never got to come here.
tomorrow my big task of the day is laundy. then, thursday is the one day this week i'm working. thursday night i'm heading to ny to photograph david's brother's wedding bright and early friday morning. sat. i bring my mother and bro to that cher concert in montreal. i still haven't asked ian to assist me at the wedding, so that probably won't happen now. probably for the best.
got to talk with corey today on the phone. that was fun. he called yesterday too cause my away message had said i'd be back sunday, but i ended up staying in boston until moday and he wanted to make sure i wasn't in a ditch somewhere cause i hadn't changed my away message on sunday night. that was sweet of him!
well, i'm going to bed now. it's tiring doing nothing all day! :-) good night everyone. hope u r all doing well!

posted by: Not_Douche at 02:37 | link | comments (2) |

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